Feeling Downhearted? Worship First…


Good Monday morning, Brave Ones!

It’s been a while since I’ve posted but mostly because I’ve been struggling with some relationship stuff and didn’t have the mental strength to share. I had been talking to a guy the last few months who lives out of state, and although I’m aware that long distance relationships rarely make it, I made the decision to hope that this could stand up to the distance…

It’s proving not to be the case and the hardest thing about this is, this is the first guy I’ve liked in a long time who I could see myself fitting well into his life and him into mine. I liked/like him a LOT and so the loss of our diminishing communications has hit me hard.

So what are we to do with sadness and deferred hope?

Weirdly enough, God gave me an answer through different online teachings and my daily devotional (the same message from completely unrelated sources): worship Him first…

I’m like whaa? Not ask for stuff first…or demand answers first, but worship FIRST. I’ll admit, I’m not great at worship. Words can fall flat with how I feel about God, and sometimes I worry that the worship songs I sing are more about the music than about Him…But all that aside, it is REALLY hard to worship when you feel like God has let you down or when you’re in pain. But that’s the message He was sending so I made the attempt.

And the crazy thing is, it has helped to ease the pain and begin to put life in the right perspective again. I believe all the love, care and “worship” I was giving this man was making me sick in my spirit because I was simultaneously giving too much and having to hold back. Not to mention, worship never belongs to a man anyway…it belongs to God.

As Christians, when we invest in someone, I think that is one of our greatest strengths, giving our praise and admiration to the ones we love. But it only works when that devotion is rightly placed. In worshiping God, His arms are open wide to receive it. We are able and encouraged to worship Him vulnerably, passionately, and with an embarrassing amount of abandon. We never have to hold back our intense excitement to adore Him. He welcomes it!

So today, when a sad or grief laden thought enters your mind–turn to God and worship Him. A worshipful heart is a heart fertile to receive joy! My prayer is that, we would all have that today.

Because of your unfailing love, I can enter your house;
I will worship at your Temple with deepest awe. -Psalm 5:7


When There Are No Guarantees


Hello, Brave Ones!

So I have been putting off posting a truth God has given to me lately because honestly it’s not something that’s easy to process, but I am realizing how important it is to face it.

Growing up, I often felt like God owed me a happy ending. Like if I did all the right things and followed Him the best I could, than I would be given everything my heart desires.

But part of growing up is seeing that not everyone gets a happy ending on earth. No amount of good deeds, kind heart, or right decisions GUARANTEES that a person will get exactly what they wanted in this life. I have witnessed a lot of tragedy this year that has put this reality into perspective.

That doesn’t mean that I haven’t witnessed goodness in the land of the living (Psalm 27:13), I absolutely have. But all the loss of dreams, loss of people and the hope for a perfect life, has grieved my heart.

So how do we best face the reality that we may not get the happy ending we want? I think our best course of action is to look to Jesus and His comfort, first and foremost. But more than that, look to His example. Jesus obeyed God in coming to a broken Earth to suffer and die for our sins. In the end, He received the ultimate glory in doing this and He got to redeem us so we could go live with Him! In other words, He obeyed…

So I have come to the conclusion that the best course of action I can take in the face of disappointment is to trust and obey. I may not understand why I do not have the thing I want, (even a seemingly good thing), or why I have had to confront certain kinds of hardship others have not, but my job at this point is to say, yes, “Though he slay me, yet will I hope in him;…” Job 13:15.

And the best news is, as believers in Christ and His forgiveness, we are promised heaven with Him in all it’s eternal wonder and perfection. Not to say we should give up hoping or working for good things on the Earth, but we can continue to both accept reality for what it is and look forward to a bright, BRIGHT future with our Creator who loves us dearly!

What to Do When We Fail to Be Brave


It would be ideal if all of us were brave all the time, and isn’t it so much easier telling other people to be brave instead of being brave ourselves?

Two nights ago, I failed at being emotionally brave. I gave in to fears which are still swimming around in my head today. My lack of courage stems from past hurt and disappointment. I expect that the painful things which have happened before WILL happen again. And because it’s easier to protect my heart by putting a high, impenetrable wall of cynicism around it–I chose to do that instead of trusting in a God who loves me and wants the best for me.

I’m still wrestling with what to do with that wall today, but thankfully God has brought a few stories to my mind. Honestly, it helps to remember that so many of His children in the Bible did not always practice bravery during difficult times:

Abraham’s wife, Sarah, chose to laugh instead of believe God would keep His promise and give her and Abraham a child in their old age.

When Jesus invited Peter out onto the water, Peter began to sink when he noticed the powerful wind and waves.

And Thomas wasn’t about to believe Jesus had come back to life until he saw Jesus’ hands with his own eyes.

But even after all this unbelief did God abandon His children?
Wonderfully, no.

In fact, He brought Abraham and Sarah the child He promised He would give to them.

He reached out and grabbed Peter’s hand instead of letting him sink to the bottom of the Sea of Galilee.

And for Thomas, I couldn’t express it better than the scripture itself…”Even though the doors were locked, Jesus stood among them and said, “Peace be with you!” Then Jesus said to Thomas, “Put your finger here, and look at my hands. Take your hand, and put it into my side. Stop doubting, and believe.” Thomas responded to Jesus, “My Lord and my God!” (John 20:26-28)

So today I am telling you, as much as I’m telling myself, God’s love and deep concern for us is not dependent on perfect belief. We can be assured that His grace is big enough to cover our inner turmoil and fears. I hope that encourages you today as we face trials of many kinds.

God is with us when we fly and when we fall. Praise His name forever for how He loves us.

Did God Make a Mistake?


Do you ever feel like you were born in the wrong time or place? I have personally struggled with this concept my whole life.

Occasionally, I have conversations with people about my parents who got divorced when I was younger and I explain to the person, that my parents shouldn’t have gotten married because they weren’t a good match for each other.

Then they reply, yes, but you wouldn’t be here. And I in turn argue, that may be true, but God could have put my soul in a different body somewhere else in the world. Preferably in a state with real seasons, vast forests (instead of plains), and a better public transportation system.

But lately God has been convicting me of thinking this way–that He somehow messed up in the placement department. The problem with my theory is, God doesn’t make mistakes. He had a plan even before we existed.

‘For you formed my inward parts;
you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are your works;
my soul knows it very well.’
~Psalm 139:13-14 (ESV)

That doesn’t sound like a God who dropped me in Texas and went, “Oops! That’s not where she was supposed to go…My bad. Hopefully she’ll make the best out it.”

So I would like to continue to challenge myself and all of us, the next time we feel like God made a mistake in putting us where we are at, consider that maybe we are EXACTLY where He wants us to be…”…for such a time as this.” (Esther 4:14)