Feeling Downhearted? Worship First…

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Good Monday morning, Brave Ones!

It’s been a while since I’ve posted but mostly because I’ve been struggling with some relationship stuff and didn’t have the mental strength to share. I had been talking to a guy the last few months who lives out of state, and although I’m aware that long distance relationships rarely make it, I made the decision to hope that this could stand up to the distance…

It’s proving not to be the case and the hardest thing about this is, this is the first guy I’ve liked in a long time who I could see myself fitting well into his life and him into mine. I liked/like him a LOT and so the loss of our diminishing communications has hit me hard.

So what are we to do with sadness and deferred hope?

Weirdly enough, God gave me an answer through different online teachings and my daily devotional (the same message from completely unrelated sources): worship Him first…

I’m like whaa? Not ask for stuff first…or demand answers first, but worship FIRST. I’ll admit, I’m not great at worship. Words can fall flat with how I feel about God, and sometimes I worry that the worship songs I sing are more about the music than about Him…But all that aside, it is REALLY hard to worship when you feel like God has let you down or when you’re in pain. But that’s the message He was sending so I made the attempt.

And the crazy thing is, it has helped to ease the pain and begin to put life in the right perspective again. I believe all the love, care and “worship” I was giving this man was making me sick in my spirit because I was simultaneously giving too much and having to hold back. Not to mention, worship never belongs to a man anyway…it belongs to God.

As Christians, when we invest in someone, I think that is one of our greatest strengths, giving our praise and admiration to the ones we love. But it only works when that devotion is rightly placed. In worshiping God, His arms are open wide to receive it. We are able and encouraged to worship Him vulnerably, passionately, and with an embarrassing amount of abandon. We never have to hold back our intense excitement to adore Him. He welcomes it!

So today, when a sad or grief laden thought enters your mind–turn to God and worship Him. A worshipful heart is a heart fertile to receive joy! My prayer is that, we would all have that today.

Because of your unfailing love, I can enter your house;
I will worship at your Temple with deepest awe. -Psalm 5:7

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Lies I Battle When I Date

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Hello, Brave Ones! Thought I’d share some personal stuff today. I went out on a blind date last Wednesday and we had a very nice time, so when he asked me out at the end of the date, I said yes!

From the outside, this is exciting–a guy who likes me, who I am still interested in getting to know, wants to hang out again. You would think after the date, I would be confident and thrilled, anticipating the next one.

But when opportunities like this come along, that’s when the real battle begins. Dating has never come easy for me. I overthink everything, and Satan’s lies do their best to break in:

“You may think he’s interested, but he’s just stringing you along. He’ll end things and you won’t know why, yet again.”

“You’ll mess this up because you’re bad at dating, and when the crazy rises to the surface you’ll freak out and bolt.”

Or the worst…

“You’re not healthy enough to fall in love with a good man. You’ll only ever crave the ones who are dangerously exciting and who make you earn their love because that’s how you’ve always been and always will be.”

Clearly, these are LIES–lies of despair and captivity. I have to bring them to the forefront of my mind and speak God’s truth over them. If I don’t, they will either sit and fester in my spirit or spin out of control–causing damage either way.

Here’s what I have to say to these lies:

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7 (ESV)

“So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day.” 2 Cor. 4:16 (ESV)

“…and you’ve become a new person. This new person is continually renewed in knowledge to be like its Creator.” Colossians 3:10 (ESV)

So today, I speak these truths of our Savior over myself and over all of you! May you have a truly blessed day.